I think the fall has finally descended upon me. To be honest I’ve been worried the last couple days because I feel like I wasn’t taking seriously all of the responsibilities and commitments I’ve made through Boston College. I was beginning to worry that I would be behind before it started and it would take a miserable failure on an assignment to get serious about school again. But I don’t think afterward about it that anymore. Zach Klein has been one of my favorite bloggers for years. I’ve enjoyed living his New York City life vicariously through his web site. Just today I read a post entitled “Going Solo” about his decision to leave Connected Ventures, the parent company of collegehumor.com, bustedtees.com in a variety of other college and humor related projects that make a ton of money. In his post he talks about his decision to leave a extremely well paying job in a fast growing company in New York City simply because he wants the get serious about other interests he has. For whatever reason it really got to me and made me realize that I’ve been Boston five years now, a long time. a lot of the time was devoted to figuring out how to live on my own and figuring out how to be in college but I’m in grad school now, the time for dicking around is done and I need to get serious and I need to move out of summer mode. That doesn’t mean it can’t still have fun but I’ve got hundreds of pages to read and several jobs to work. After reading I got really tense and stormed around my room at a mad pace to finish the unpacking and cleaning I’ve been putting off for over a week now. It’s something that’s been really bothered me and I felt really good to get that done at the very least, although to be honest I have a lot more work to do.
Anyway, I just wanted to document this “Ton-o-Bricks-Falling-On-You” epiphany moment and acknowledge that it is time to get serious. I figure if they do this in public I’ll force myself to stick to it. It’s time to get serious, I mean it this time.
It’s really funny to me that in order to get real about some project or commitment I pretty much need to have a panic attack about it, otherwise I won’t take it seriously. by now I should learn to recognize how silly and get serious without the anxiety. It’s pretty ridiculous I can go from totally relaxed and comfortable (as I was last night hanging out at Conor and Brenda’s new place) to Freaked in such a short time span. It only makes the silliness and pointlessness of the situation that more apparent. Oh well.
